I feel it now… That lonely feeling. I’m over hundred miles away from home, but feel completely alone. For some reason you look for comfort, even in just the glimpse of a strangers eyes looking back at you… Even for mere pity. I feel like it’s that obvious. It’d evident… That I’m hurting. It’s easier to not say
I miss everything…but then I don’t miss parts of it. I miss everyone…but not the person I was then. I just miss something right now, deep within…
:: David Gray- Forgetting::
Since it was just on tv, I felt the need to vent about few things I’m hating right now…
1) I hate that I don’t have my own place anymore 2) I hate not coming home to my dog after a stressful day at work 3) I hate that I have to drive longer to and from work now, as opposed to a 10 min drive 4) I hate that I feel lonely now 5) I hate that I learned to cook, when I don’t have anyone to cook for anymore 6) I hate that friends get caught in the mix 7) I hate that I never want to do anything anymore but be alone to enjoy the silence 8) I hate that my sister is far away when I need her the most 9) I hate that I still hold on to things 10) I hate that we ruined it
I realize that ppl have it far worse in life than me, and these are but mere petty shitty problems. I’m not asking for sympathy. Just needed to fucking vent.
I’m going to challenge myself not to drink alcohol for the entire month of September.
Saw Eat, Pray, Love again tonight with some friends. God I love that movie. Doesn’t do the book justice, but it’s still good.
Finally have all my shit out of boxes. Crazy how 5 years fit into 10 boxes, and those 10 boxes, fit into a small bedroom. Still feels weird driving down to my “new home.” Aside from everything else that’s been hard to adjust, what’s really been tough is not coming home to my dog. Coming home to Gordo always made my day. No matter how shitty or good your day is, coming home to a dog who is more excited than a pig in shit to see you is priceless.
Hmm… too much on the mind right now…
Sidenote: Javier Bardem is delicious
The Nanny is on… g’night :)