I’m an idiot… Always expecting when there should be no expectations.
I feel it now… That lonely feeling. I’m over hundred miles away from home, but feel completely alone. For some reason you look for comfort, even in just the glimpse of a strangers eyes looking back at you… Even for mere pity. I feel like it’s that obvious. It’d evident… That I’m hurting. It’s easier to not say
I miss everything…but then I don’t miss parts of it. I miss everyone…but not the person I was then. I just miss something right now, deep within…
:: David Gray- Forgetting::
Since it was just on tv, I felt the need to vent about few things I’m hating right now…
1) I hate that I don’t have my own place anymore 2) I hate not coming home to my dog after a stressful day at work 3) I hate that I have to drive longer to and from work now, as opposed to a 10 min drive 4) I hate that I feel lonely now 5) I hate that I learned to cook, when I don’t have anyone to cook for anymore 6) I hate that friends get caught in the mix 7) I hate that I never want to do anything anymore but be alone to enjoy the silence 8) I hate that my sister is far away when I need her the most 9) I hate that I still hold on to things 10) I hate that we ruined it
I realize that ppl have it far worse in life than me, and these are but mere petty shitty problems. I’m not asking for sympathy. Just needed to fucking vent.